Everyone always thinks I'm taller, even people who've stood right next to me in my socks!! I've always said I make up for it with noise so no one notices :)
I also have FEAR of swimming. I had a really major breakthrough moment in January, when I was at a tournament with the Rollergirls. The hotel we were in had a swimming pool, it was a 2 day tournament so wild drinking parties on the night we were staying was a no-no, so the idea proposed was a pool party. I took along a primark bikini I'd bought out of desperation in hot weather last june I'd only ever worn on a deserted beach or under a baggy t-shirt. I sat at the side of the pool wrapped tightly in my towel watching people have fun, bemoaning that the fear of my extra weight being seen by people was keeping me from having fun.
Then I realised that every single woman around me was an amazing, beautiful rollergirl. The super thin, the slim, the curvy, the super curvy. None of them would look at me and judge me, I wasn't judging them. What was I afraid of? If I was only afraid of being judged, then why not pity the person judging me. I realised that most of the beautiful girls around me also had their own insecurities. I talked to a girl in a gorgeous vintage swimsuit who said she wished she had more boobs to put in it. I talked to a tall, thin girl in a swimming costume who said she wished so could wear a bikini but had no waist or hips, so felt she looked weird in them. It was a bit of a revelation.
I flung my towel off and jumped in.
You're slightly taller than me and about a stone and a half lighter, it's the weight I've always aimed for, so I reckon you're spot on :)
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I also have FEAR of swimming. I had a really major breakthrough moment in January, when I was at a tournament with the Rollergirls. The hotel we were in had a swimming pool, it was a 2 day tournament so wild drinking parties on the night we were staying was a no-no, so the idea proposed was a pool party. I took along a primark bikini I'd bought out of desperation in hot weather last june I'd only ever worn on a deserted beach or under a baggy t-shirt. I sat at the side of the pool wrapped tightly in my towel watching people have fun, bemoaning that the fear of my extra weight being seen by people was keeping me from having fun.
Then I realised that every single woman around me was an amazing, beautiful rollergirl. The super thin, the slim, the curvy, the super curvy. None of them would look at me and judge me, I wasn't judging them. What was I afraid of? If I was only afraid of being judged, then why not pity the person judging me. I realised that most of the beautiful girls around me also had their own insecurities. I talked to a girl in a gorgeous vintage swimsuit who said she wished she had more boobs to put in it. I talked to a tall, thin girl in a swimming costume who said she wished so could wear a bikini but had no waist or hips, so felt she looked weird in them. It was a bit of a revelation.
I flung my towel off and jumped in.
You're slightly taller than me and about a stone and a half lighter, it's the weight I've always aimed for, so I reckon you're spot on :)